Tender Mercies

I was talking to Amber Miller today and I told her that a recent passing of a micro premie in the ward has restored some feelings of my own loss.  Somewhere in the conversation she asked me if I had seen Tender Mercies in my own life.  I will try to think of some.

- Rhett was steady when he was born and wasn’t in intensive need.  So I didn’t fear his life right away and I could focus on myself.   I was in a bad spot with all those meds and lack of sleep.
-My milk (Or colostrum) came in rather quickly (while still in the hospital) so that I could feed him.
- The Brunson’s covering a baby session for Eli so I could treasure those images forever.
-Rhett didn’t really get any sickness even a real cold for a long time (even past Christmas).   That was a huge blessing since I was dealing with anxiety.  And added fear for anything that might effect his breathing.  I kept putting ongaurd oil on his feet but that isn’t fool proof.  I think he was being watched over since Aubree was now in Kindergarten.  We sanitized her hands like crazy but that alone still isn’t fool proof.
-When school did start I didn’t have to take Aubree to school.  Thankfully her bus time lined up with the time Ryan went to work.  That way I didn’t have to get everyone else ready and into the van.
-Rhett never caught RSV.
-Rhett seems to show no signs of development issues despite his early birth.
- Rhett’s surgery going well without well without complications.  Also having Amber there with me to talk so I can keep my mind occupied and not so nervous.
- Having Ashley happen to be traveling to town that weekend we were doing Eli’s services because I had told my family not to worry about coming and making two trips for me in the year.  I was trying not to inconvenience anyone when it was just a small little graveside service but I was glad to have both Ashley and Amber there.
-Ashley and Amber surprising me with a visit when I had a lot of stress on my mind.  Eli’s Angelverssary and Ryan trying to decide to take the new job were weighing heavily on me and then it was SO nice to have them there to support me during the blow up from all the stress.